Six Years

Six years ago my world was shattered, and my life was turned upside down.

We got a call that my brother had been in a car accident.

My parents lost a child, and I lost a brother.

Our family was surrounded for days by people that love and care about us. Cooking us meals, cleaning our house, and just being there.

The weeks passed and less people came by, and we were faced with the horrifying reality that our life as we knew it was changed forever.

I no longer had someone constantly picking on me and doing every possible thing to drive me crazy.

I would give anything for him to pick on me again. To see that goofy grin of his. To hear his laugh. Hug his neck.

I often wonder what life would be like if Christopher were still here. Would we be closer now that we were older? Would he be proud of me and everything that I've done? What would he be doing? Would he approve of Taylor, and would they get along?

I am selfish daily, and want his presence back so badly. I have to remember that he is the one that is in Heaven, and that is far better than anything he could experience on this Earth. The Lord's plan is so much bigger and better than my plan. I struggle to remember that daily, and I wish that I understood it.

Until I can understand it, I will cherish the 15 years of memories with Christopher and thank the Lord that my bubba is in a better place. I will live my life fully and be thankful for all of my blessings.